lets try this again, shall we?
A few months back, I got some news at work that made me more then a little crazy. Nothing is promised, but you go through things one day at a time hoping to make it out alive.
This news wasn’t anything life or death. Simply that things were getting slow, and as such we would have to lay a few people off. Things did not turn around. A month later, a few more people were laid off. A month after that, some salaried positions were eliminated.
Things were not, as they say, looking up. I freaked out. I applied for jobs left and right. I had made it through three rounds of layoffs, my sanity only mildly intact. During that time, two things happened. Kaleigh and I found out that we were going to be having a baby, which was wonderful news. It was also not helping my sanity levels.
I have so far spent six months dealing with the “heartache” of seeing people I cared about lose a chunk of their livelihood. Some days at work I am simply a husk of a person, going through the motions and hoping that tomorrow will be a better day. Sometimes there are better days. We’ve recently hired back one of those employees. Things have begun to pick up, much like a car will pick up after an oil change.
The other thing that happened, was a part time job. For the next few years I can imagine that’s something I do. Full time and part time, especially with the baby on the way. I work at a liquor store. It keeps me sane. I genuinely like people (most days, but retail life has reminded me that people also suck). It has given me some extra spending money, and kept Kaleigh and I more or less above the red zone financially. As work picks up for both of us, I think to myself maybe we will make it. By prayer and petition and sweat and blood and tears, maybe we will.
Is this what this adult stuff is like? I think no one goes in knowing just what they’ll get out of it. I am lucky and say I am blessed (truly) to be going through this with my Kaleigh, my best friend and truly my other half. Each day above ground is another glorious day, somehow, someway, and I try to stay thankful.
Three years with 3M. Here’s hoping there are a few more left, and if not by know I hope I find something better. Life is what you make of it and I still believe you get back out what you put in.
In the meantime, keep plugging away, and my plans have changed a bit. Back to school somehow, and while I’m doing that, learn a bit of programming.